Why????

Here I am, graduated from nursing school, awaiting my turn to take boards, and guess what? I can't find a job! Apparently budget cutbacks and being last to graduate in the state has caused a few problems. I understand but I don't understand. I know I'm going to get a job, and I know I'll get the one I'm meant to get, but I just don't quite understand what God is trying to do in my life right now. I'm having a very hard time understanding why He would let me go as far as He did and now the door is closed. It's looking like October before I start to work. Why?????

I know I should enjoy this time with BB and DQ. I know that this is an opportunity to get some things done. I know that I need to have surgery. I know that there a few other opportunities that I can pursue until then, but I still don't understand. Is that confusing? Sorry, I'm just so very down and upset at this point. I'm disappointed. I'm frustrated. I'm bored. I feel like my dream is just out of reach, I can touch it, I can see it, but I can't quite grab hold of it.

My mom keeps telling me, don't worry, your job just isn't available yet; God has the perfect job for you. Hubby keeps telling me to be persistent. God keeps telling me to be still and wait....
"Let all that I am wait quietly before God,
for my hope is in Him. He alone is my rock
and my salvation, my fortress
where I will not be shaken."
Psalm 62:5-6 (NLT)
This I know, but my ever present struggle with impatience, and lack of trust are wrestling me down. I also feel like a bit of a failure at this point. Most of my classmates have jobs, not all of them, but most of them. Did I wait too long to apply? Am I doing something wrong in the application process? Is there something wrong with my resume?

I do have an interview in July. The position won't begin till October. I'm terrified though. What if they don't want me? Then what????

Anyway, I seek your prayers as I struggle through this storm. I know this will happen in His time, I'm just afraid.
Seeking His Guidance,
Amy