I Know...

I know it's not even Thanksgiving yet but hear me out. I know Christmas is still forever away, but I figure why unpack everyday stuff when I just have to turn around and pack it all back up so I can put Christmas out? This way I can just unpack Christmas and then I can enjoy my mint truffle Hershey kisses now instead of waiting till the end of November!! I know you understand my logic.... right?

Amy

Excuse My French

Middle school SUCKS!! I feel like my poor son is so swamped in homework that he is forgetting how to be a kid! Does that make sense?

When I was in 6th grade I remember having time to come home and watch a few cartoons, have a snack, take a bike ride, eat supper with my family, and even talk on the phone to my friends. I remember doing homework for about 30 mins daily, sometimes up to an hour. I stress the word sometimes. I remember having slumber parties, having my first "boyfriend", having friends over for the weekend. I remember I played Y-ball every Saturday. I remember getting my first bra (however unnecessary it was). I remember the musical I did in chorus at school.

Want to know what BB is gonna remember? HOMEWORK. Never ending, tear streaking, head aching, fist pounding hours of homework. I'm so frustrated with all of this. He has gotten caught up but has so much work to do EVERY single day that it's almost impossible to stay caught up. We have yet to take our bike ride together around our new neighborhood. He hasn't watched cartoons in days. He sits at the table hour after hour pouring over homework only to go to school the next day to get more. I just don't know what to do!!! I'm watching my little boy have to be a grown up. It makes me angry that the school is stealing his childhood from him. They are stealing his joy. Do you know he hasn't even had time to go to church on Wed night? OUT OF CONTROL. I'm seriously comtemplating private school next year just to give the poor kid a break!

Amy

Unbelievable

This morning was a great morning. We woke up in our new home, which we are still not used to! The kids went back to school after a whole week off for fall break. I am making progress on putting the house together. Cable gets installed today. I have the whole day to myself in my new house. Good day right? Well.....

I went to Walmart this morning after taking DQ to school to go grocery shopping. I came in under budget which is ALWAYS a good thing. So I'm slowly backing out, thinking what a great morning I was having, carefully looking because there was a van blocking my view. All of a sudden I hear a guy yelling. I stop and look to see him coming up behind me, from behind the van, with a little boy in his cart cussing and screaming at me. He then proceeded to kick my car then began to come up to my window all the while screaming and cussing and hands flying. I was so stunned and scared all I could think to do was lay on my horn in hopes that someone would come to my rescue. He was out of control! Needless to say he headed off into the store yelling a cussing the whole way in. I sat there and cried and shook and called hubby. Hubby wanted me to call the police but that poor little boy was so cute and would you want your child watching you get arrested for assault? Trust me, had he been alone the police would have been called quick, fast, and in a hurry! I was so incredibly freaked out. What in the world was WRONG with him????????

Anyway, the rest of my day has been just dandy thank you very much!!!!
Amy

Urgent

I've posted before about little Stellan (just click the button above to visit his page).
He has been doing wonderful with his SVT until last night. Sadly precious Stellan is having his worst bout yet. Please pray for him and his family right now. Drop what you are doing and PRAY! If you would like to follow the updates you can follow their twitter acount. You don't have to twitter, I don't, but she updates a lot on there.

Amy

Pathetic

Well, we are moved in to our new home. I love my house, I love it, love it, love it.
This being said it's pathetic that I'm down. I love change so very much as you all know! I'm down because life feels different. Not different in a bad way, just different; and different doesn't go over well with me. Pathetic I know.

Know what else is pathetic? How dependent I am upon cable tv. Not just me, my whole family. We are having cable issues and we are suffering greatly I must say. To our credit, BB is sick and it's pouring down rain, again, which limits us greatly as to possible alternative activities. BB actually took a nap today. The last time that happened he wasn't even potty trained yet! He's so miserable! We are so miserable! Pathetic.

Last night I was laying on our new reclining sofa watching the 5oth movie of the day and fell asleep about 9:00. I woke up sometime around 2 am and headed to my bed. Around 3 BB came stumbling in burning up with fever and babbling about algebraic equations. I panicked, woke hubby up, and then fell asleep next to BB in our great big new garden tub. Pathetic.

As far as fall breaks go this one will go down as bitter sweet. No traveling to some exotic destinations. No day after day of fun. However, we are in our brand new house, making it our home, and loving it. We are bored and cranky and irritable. We are frustrated and tired and have cabin fever (and regular fever too). BB has said on more than one occasion that he has no life (guess being sick and getting bad grades does that to ya!). DQ has a play date Thursday. We are getting lots of rest. We are getting very organized. We are cooking lots of food. Pathetic.
Maybe this summer we will travel to some place fun and exciting! Maybe??? PLEASE???? Pathetic I know!

Amy

Frustration

Our son BB has always been an overachiever of sorts. He has always been the one we knew we didn't have to worry about. He usually does what he's told, he's pretty responsible, and he's very reliable. BB has been a straight A student since he started school. He loves to read and draw. He has the funniest personality of any kid I've ever met. He's always been solid as a rock. Lately our little guy has started to stumble HARD. He is not doing his school work, he's talking and being disruptive in class, he's been caught in several lies, and I even caught him reading a book he know's he's not allowed to read.
Now don't get me wrong. I realize he's just a kid. I know he's human and he's gonna make mistakes. I know he cannot be perfect all the time. What I'm struggling with is that it's becoming an everyday occurrence. I don't trust him at all right now. I'm so angry at him, and so hurt by him. I have gotten emails from two of his teachers and it's only the beginning of the 2nd quarter. I have NEVER gotten a negative email about him. I am just at a loss of what to do. He is not turning in assignments, he's "losing" things, and he is just plain all out lying about his school work.
I feel terrible about being so angry at him, but I am so hurt by this. I just don't understand what is going on! As I type this he is sitting at the counter at 9:00 doing work that was due last week. He has been working on make up work all week and still doesn't seem to understand the gravity of his situation. We have taken away all of his privileges. He sat down on the couch to read a book tonight and I had to make him put it down to do more homework. This is breaking my heart. I just don't understand and I just don't know what to do!
I have been trying so hard not to constantly ride him about it. I have tried to be encouraging and patient. I have tried to keep in mind that middle school can be a big adjustment. Tonight though I finally lost my patience. I got an email from his science teacher asking if he could start staying after school to catch up because she is concerned he won't be able to if he falls any further behind. It would be one thing if the work was too hard, that I could understand. He's just being lazy. He even said as much to me. Bless his heart, he has admitted to all of his wrong doings when asked, but he has been very sneaky until he got caught. I'm just at a loss. I am just sad and frustrated.

Amy

All Better

No worries, we are no longer contagious so it's safe to come back! DQ is all healed up and back to her usual spunky self!! Really this swine/H1N1 flu was no big deal!

So I don't know if you remember a few posts back where I was whining about being put in my place at work. A couple of fellow coworkers took it upon themselves to inform a manager of my fears (just so you know they were never fears just strong dislike) of a specific aspect of my job. Anyhooo.... I am pleased to announce that what went around came around last night. I know I know, get over it Amy. Grow up Amy. Move on Amy. Well, guess what? I am imperfect and decided to wallow in self pity and anger for a few days, so sue me!

Anyway, last night I was doing my little undesired job aspect and one of the said nurses was bringing me a patient. Apparently the doctor was not impressed with the work of this said nurse and the nurse was asked to repeat a procedure. I have to admit I giggled A LOT, only in my head though, NEVER out loud! Needless to say, it was not her night.

Now, as I snickered all the way home about her night, God kicked me in the head and said "Amy, shame on you!" I am reminded of this verse: Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. Romans 12:19. Now while I did not actually take revenge, I took great pleasure in watching her struggle, and that makes me guilty for not leaving room for God to handle things. What I should have done is offered to give her a hand instead of simply watching her. I could have asked her earlier if there was anything I could do to help her get the patient ready. Instead I let her squirm. I let my anger and selfishness get in the way of my spirit. I am not a mean person. I have a gift for compassion and mercy, yet I stuffed that gift God has given me in a box and put a lid on it. Who am I to give God a gift back? Who am I to decide she needs to be punished. Honestly she did me a favor. She taught me through her ugliness that beauty can abound in me. Instead of letting that beauty abound I repayed her with ugliness. All I can do now is not let it happen again and seek forgiveness.

So I ask you dear bloggy friends to forgive my attitude. I have asked the Lord to forgive me, and I will ask her as well. I am to be a light and I will try my hardest not to fail. I know I will fail, but I will try not to!

Amy