A Different Kind......

Don't get me wrong, I'm not naive enough to know that now that school is over that everything will just magically be ok. I know that things will always go wrong, that there will always be some kind of hurdle to overcome. I even know that my hurdles are small compared to other hurdles some people are facing. No more worrying about exams (except boards), care plans, and clinicals. No more looming deadlines that are the end of the world as I know it. But life does go on and this is just a different sort of hurdle.

However, I'm pouting right now!! I just feel like the last few days I have been under attack! Our internet was mistakenly turned off on Saturday morning and just now turned back on, we got a very large unexpected bill in the mail, hubby is on a 60day stretch at work without a day off, I got a great job offer that I don't know if I can take, yada yada yada.... Oh me.... Booo Hoooo:(

As I've been stewing in my own self pity I read a blog of a friend from church. She has been battling cancer for a few months and she is so Godly! She has been positive and upbeat this whole time, no matter what is thrown at her. She gave me this scripture to hold on to "And my God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19 She reminded me that I am trying to wade through these waters on my own and not asking God for help. I know that I cannot do anything on my own, but as usual I find myself bargaining, and brainstorming, and pouting my way along the bumps instead of hitting my knees and trusting Jesus to work this all out.

I'm very tired right now, very discouraged. I know this is not a very cheerful message to you all, but I started this blog to be real and it is important for you to know that I am real, that I'm struggling and frustrated. I ask for you to pray for me please.

Hoping to come back with a better spirit soon!!
Amy