Out of Sorts

You ever have those times when you feel like you have lost control of your life? Not like I'm losing my house, I lost my job, how are we going to eat kind of control, but the kind where you thought you had everything in place and then one day you have nothing in place? Bingo, that's me right now.

I've already posted that our laptop has crashed. Well, I was very dependent on that thing. I mean I am so lost without it! Then I get a little infection and not feeling well and I get back on my feet and my house has gotten about a week ahead of me. Ugh, I hate that feeling!

Today, my partner/helper for teaching 7th grade girls just called and told me she's just not going to be able to help me anymore. AAHHHHAAAHHHH! What now? I mean I just lost my backup! Don't get me wrong, I'm not upset with her, just the situation. I'm already out of my comfort zone, and now I'm really out! I have no administrative skills what so ever, and now I'm "on my own". This too shall pass, right? RIGHT?

DQ has been up to her old tricks at school. She's a great girl, she really is, but her ability to focus is zilch. She just flutters from one thing to the next without ever giving anything a second thought. She's social, and happy, and just takes everything in stride and moves on. Problem is math is not that way! It requires that you focus, and use care and take your time. DQ doesn't have that ability I'm afraid. If she doesn't get it she moves on. If it takes too long she moves on. Well my little DQ, you have to quit moving on and be still for awhile and work on your math!! Be still my child!!!!!!

BB is fine as usual. He's so solid and grounded! Definitely quite the opposite of our little DQ. Lately, however, BB has decided that he's wants life on his terms, not ours. He's gotten a little rebellious lately, nothing serious, just trying things his way. I'm not sure I'm ready for him to go there just yet. I'm not done teaching him. I'm not done holding him and protecting him. I'm not done being his mommy! I'm not ready to give up "mommy" and become "mom". I don't know if that makes sense, but those of you with little ones, the day you are no longer mommy and become mom is the day your heart leaves your chest and walks around outside your body with that precious child! If only I could keep my little boy forever little!

OK, I'm done pouting for the time being. I'll be back with the latest drama soon I'm sure! Stay tuned!!!!

~Amy~